Sunday, April 25, 2010

lauren.



Thankful.
i'm thankful for friends.
family.
a warm bed.
food to eat.
a school to go to.
the clothes on my back.
people to look up to.
church.
the ocean.
the ability to run.
to dance.
to sing.
to speak freely.
mountains.
the smell of asphalt after it rains.
rain.
volleyball.
music.
art.
photography.
black and white photos.
wrinkles.
old people.
sisters that would lay down their lives for you.
brothers who would take a bullet for you.
mothers who will cry for you even when they don't know why you're sad.
fathers who you fear when you are young but look up to so much you want to be just like them.
best friends who will run to your rescue after you lose a grandparent.
a God who knows me and loves me all the same.

lately, i've become desensitized and ungrateful. i've let myself become numb to life instead of reflecting on all of God's amazing blessings He's placed in my life. my friend lauren told me she was leaving pba to go to another school, it didn't hit me until this weekend when she left for a vacation. i took her for granted. it just reminded me how often we take each other for granted and how often we take Christ's blessings for granted.

Monday, April 19, 2010

Nothing Makes Sense

Christianity doesn't make sense.
God doesn't make sense.
Life doesn't make sense.
Nothing really makes sense.
We cannot explain anything.
We always fall short in everything.
We always give ourselves to empty things.
We end up chasing the wrong things.
Where will we go when we leave Earth?
What will we do when we have nothing Earthly?
How will we go on without our selfish desire?
Why can't we defeat evil sooner.
What if the beauty of this mystery is that we have our faith?
Maybe that's what God wanted since the beginning.
Maybe that's why He sent His only son to die for us.
Maybe He's loved us all along.
Maybe He still longs for a relationship with us despite our shortcomings.
Maybe He's the only one that can defeat the evil that is lurking inside of us.
Maybe He has already nailed all of our sin to the cross.
Maybe everything we have done is completely washed away by His blood.
Maybe He wants to spend eternity with us.
Maybe He wants us to share Him with the world.
Because everybody is equally loved by a great and mighty God,
Who yearns for a conversation with His children,
Who created His people in His image and made them for a purpose,
Who is the son who died for his people,
Who is the spirit that dwells inside his people,
Who is the God that comforts and loves and is never changing.
Maybe while everything else is constantly changing we are forgetting the One who has always stayed the same.
Maybe we don't need all the answers to believe.
Maybe our biggest fault is that we live by sight, rather than by our faith.
Maybe our lives could change through a relationship with the One God who saved us all.